If I Cannot Write, I Will Draw

Years ago, while rifling through old National Geographic magazines, I came across a quote I later cut out and used in a collage: “…if I get scared, I cannot write, and if I write, I am not scared.”

That still resonates with me today, but another dimension is resurfacing for the first time since childhood — if I cannot write, I will draw.

She’ll go her own way, you can’t take the song out of her bones. // “Darkling Seer” by Alyssa Pearl Fusek (2017)

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What’s Under the Bed?

“Once we believe in ourselves, we can risk curiosity, wonder, spontaneous delight, or any experience that reveals the human spirit.” — e.e. cummings

Look under your bed. Are there boxes of condensed memories? An abnormally large clump of cat fur? A lonely plush toy or doll? (Cue Toy Story 2 feels). Is there too much for you to even consider? Is there anything at all?

Some of us have to relearn to be curious again. I’m one of them.

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What Do I Look Like I Listen To?

“So what music do you listen to?”

“Oh, mostly rock and heavy metal, some Japanese music, little bit of screamo.”


The above is a skeleton conversation on the topic of music, one I’ve had many times. Responses vary, but what never changes is the reaction. The surprise? The arched eyebrows? The slight confusion? The reassessing eye?

Apparently, I don’t look like what I listen to.

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